Anything is better than to be alone....and in the end I guess I'll have to fall?

You're not alone, many people feel like they're the only one's who don't have someone, you just have to keep faith, you haven't met everyone you're going to meet, someone out there will be the one for you, you just have to be patient. In the meantime, just be yourself, hang out with your friends, do what you do, you'll find someone who likes the same things you do :)